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Saturday, November 7, 2009Y

Its 7am in the morning and i still cant sleep. Tons of things are spinning in my head now. Everything seems to gone wrong nowadays.

I had realized that im nothing more than her friends after this 1year plus.

Yes i admit , i cant trust her on anything , go out with friends also must bring me along as i wanna know what she's doing , cant give her more freedom and so and so .What's wrong when i follow her when she go out with her friends? Am i that annoying ? Is there anything that im not suppose to know?

Although im trying very hard , finding possible ways to trust her 100% , in the end , everything will be ruined by me and will lead to quarrel.

I dont know what can i do more so that both of us will be happy with each other. Its so difficult .

I was planning to book a chalet this December for her to enjoy. I want her to invite her friends to enjoy with her also and I didt invite any of my friends as this chalet is for her and i dont think its the wrong way of doing things because the main thing is i want her happy. In this case , when she'senjoying the happy times , i'll also happily laughing and joking around because i know that i do exist beside her.
I want her to know how deep is my love for her but i just dont know how to express to her.

I know that seldom couples will last forever , but i'll try my very best to hold on to her and never let go.

I do love her very deeply .

Nobody could replace her .

I just love her .

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