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Im just a USELESS bum .

2009-11-07T14:06:00.001-08:00

Its 7am in the morning and i still cant sleep. Tons of things are spinning in my head now. Everything seems to gone wrong nowadays.

I had realized that im nothing more than her friends after this 1year plus.

Yes i admit , i cant trust her on anything , go out with friends also must bring me along as i wanna know what she's doing , cant give her more freedom and so and so .What's wrong when i follow her when she go out with her friends? Am i that annoying ? Is there anything that im not suppose to know?

Although im trying very hard , finding possible ways to trust her 100% , in the end , everything will be ruined by me and will lead to quarrel.

I dont know what can i do more so that both of us will be happy with each other. Its so difficult .

I was planning to book a chalet this December for her to enjoy. I want her to invite her friends to enjoy with her also and I didt invite any of my friends as this chalet is for her and i dont think its the wrong way of doing things because the main thing is i want her happy. In this case , when she'senjoying the happy times , i'll also happily laughing and joking around because i know that i do exist beside her.
I want her to know how deep is my love for her but i just dont know how to express to her.

I know that seldom couples will last forever , but i'll try my very best to hold on to her and never let go.

I do love her very deeply .

Nobody could replace her .

I just love her .

:)

2009-08-29T08:30:00.000-07:00

Hmm. It's time to revive my blog. It's been dead for so long.

Life is so bored nowadays. Study Study Study. Also dont know will get my course anot.
How i wish that i'll be in Sec 3 everyday. So fun.

Struggling for 'N' levels with my beloved classmates. Everyone is studying hard for mostly Science and Mathematics now but some of of classmates are still they in lala land.

Gotcha ! Sleeping during maths lesson !

Last week. My hair will been cut by don't know which teacher. I don't know what are all the teachers thinking seriously. They should not cut students' hair themself although students' hair are long. No respect to us. So why must we respect them? Must respect others before people respect you marhs. Hais. So choice. Walking everywhere with my funny hairstyle now.

Before.....

After....

2009-01-17T03:03:00.000-08:00

Feeling so upset for losing my best girlfriend. I noe its all my misunderstanding. But should tell me before things happened.
Im a easy jealous person. I already didt hear what people say. I trust what i had seen.
When Im angry , I gave her attitude and done what i had never done before de things.
I really dont wish to lost this relationship with her . She's my only stead that i cherish most. She's so important to me although i everytime misunderstood her and gave her attitude.
She seems to be wondering if i listen to people advise and finding a girl to replace her.
Seriously i didt. Hope she wun misunderstand it.
I waiting for a second chance and a last chance by her. I really cant afford to lose her.

" Dear. If u come across my blog, i hope u will give me a last chance. I promise I wont treat u liddat again. I'll ask you nicely first. I really cant lose u. "

I'll be waiting for you. Pieces of broken hearts.

2008-12-29T01:11:00.000-08:00

1. Do you have secrets?
* Hmm. Some dirty little secrets? Hahhs.

2.When is your b'day?
* 2nd May.

3.Do you enjoy going to sch?
* Sometimes.

4.Wht would u do with $1000000000?
* Buy Nintendo DS .

5.What's your view toward love?
* Wonderful.

6.Which is more blessed? Being loved by someone or loving someone?
* Loving someone.

7.How long will you be willing to wait for someone you love?
* Not sure. Maybe 1 year plus.

8.if the person u love is not attach, what would u do?
* Won't de. She's already attached to me.

9.Is there anything that made u extremely happy recently?
* School is opening soon?

10.What makes you angry?
* Dunno.

11.How would you see yourself in 10 year's time?
* Have a marriage with her and have a wonderful and happy family?

12.Who is currently more important to you?
* Her.

13.What is the most important thing in your life?
* Her.

14.What if your best fren dropped into the sea,who would u save 1st?
* Huhh?

15.What is your favourite colour?
* Maybe black and pink?

16.Would u give in to your relationship?
* Depends.

17.If your ex hurt u badly and wants u back, what would u do?
* " PUI* Fuuck off. "

18.How are you feeling right now?
* Giddy. Just wokeup.

19.Love or like?
* Love.

20.Who sabboed you?
* Liting.

21.Hows your relationship wif her?
* Classmate.

22.5 impression of her
* Hmm. Helpful?

23.The most memoralble thing she has done for you?
* Lols? Nothing lehs.

2008-12-15T08:21:00.000-08:00

Today very sian sia. Everything seems to be wrong. Dunno why liddat.
Sleep until evening then wakeup. Whole people giddy giddy de.
Went to washup then straight go play computer games.
Play till 6plus then father say dunwan have pets at home. Then Bobian need to fang shen le.
So i decided to put at fujiat's hse and sunbian to put games into my psp.
Found out that the version of the psp had been upgraded . Dunno how to downgrade.
Hias. sian lorhs. Liddat jiu cant play games from memory card le.
Then 7plus went to find her and peii her N her didi go Sun Plaza buy books.
Saw them on the bus . Moodless de sit beside them. Then went on Silent Mode.
Im not purposly wan liddat treat her de. Hais.
Then keep on liddat till when i found $5 on the qround then ask her didi to take. Suddenly talk 1 sentence then went bak Silent mode again. Keep on liddat all the way home.
Hais. What should i do to make it better?

Will we last long? Are there gaps between us? x3

2008-12-07T03:06:00.000-08:00

What a tired day today. Whole night didt sleep then early in the morning go sembawang crabbing.
No people at the jetty when we reach there.
So we started to tie knots at the railings and put the fish head up then throw it down .

( Keep pulling up the net and check )
Waited for so long then finally 1 came up.

Around 11plus , the sun lai liao. So hot . But i still lie dere to Sun-tan.
Gey Kiang then get sun-burn.
Whole back redred de. wahh. First Time lehs

( SUN-BURN )

About 1plus , the wind blows and start to drizzle.
The waves were so nice .
Suddenly it rain heavily.
Heng got a kind uncle asked us to share shelter with them arbo we'll be all wet.
( Shelter )

Only rain for 10mins. After the rain , we continue to catch more.
But in the end of have a few and we throw them back to the sea cause its too small.

( Small Crabs )

When home. Noticed the whole body red and hot and itchy.
My face also red. Hais. Gey Kiang de me !.

<3DearDear.

2008-12-06T04:35:00.000-08:00

Today just get back my computer. Actually is Monday get de. But today then get. Let my computer sleep at the Computer shop.

Reformat sia. Everything lost then need to download again.
Whole day at home .
Sibei sian bodoh !

<3 DearDear ..

2008-12-05T12:10:00.001-08:00

hello.